How've you all been? I know I've been less and less present around here. My replying with up to week-long delays sort of became the norm instead of the exception, and believe me or not, it makes me feel rather awful... Therefore, I come to announce an indefinite hiatus.
If I can hold on to my friday-night determination, I shall keep posting over-due prize arts, art trades and commissions. Either one at a time or mass submissions like today. Not sure yet. The thing is, even if I do, I doubt I'll reply to anybody, so please don't feel offended or, even worse, don't think I'm ignoring you or something. I'm just a bit... moody? Down? Spiritless, yes, I like that word. No need to bore you with my problems, just know that they're consuming me. Like, a lot.
Art was always a vent, something I could do to get some heavy feelngs off my chest. Only, if I look at ma gallery, I see how most of my stuff is... something requested? Not my personal art. Not saying I regret it, cause I love drawing for other people and make them happy, only... yeah... Thanks to a certain somebody, I rediscovered the joy of drawing just for myself? And it's helping me. Making me feel better. Partly anyway. Since I also do get the feeling I'm being unfair towards commissioners in special or those I owe art trades to and stuff. And that guilt actually becomes... pressure. Which makes me even less willing to draw. I know none of you guys would hold it against me, 'cause lucky as I am, I know all of you more or less and you're great and understanding people. Nevertheless I hate this feeling of being a disappontment
. That, in turn, pushes me even further away from dA, since seing the bunch of unanswered messages reminds me how very behind I am with my to-do-list? You get the picture, I think...
TBH, it was not part of the plan to write all this, but it sort of... happened... since I think I ought to give some sort of explanation? Instead of just saying "Hey guys, going on hiatus, cya!"TL;DRGoing on hiatus. Will upload art, but won't reply/comment/etc. Might fav and run tho'.Other than that, I'll just submit my doodles and vent arts and stuff to my tumblr ; v ; which I finally started to use? -shot-